The Finn Chronicles

[Wulfi]

It's been a while. I've been going through old threads on here and wow, it's been... an experience.

Nov 14, 2007 22:11:22 GMT -5 Wulfi said:

Schooldays = Wake up at 6AM, fall back asleep, wake up at 7AM, shower, school, etc.

Weekends = Depends. Sometimes I don't sleep at all. The less sleep I get, the better (sometimes). Foxxi and I will go to sleep at about 2AM on Friday nights (Saturday mornings) and wake up between 9:30AM and 1PM. On Saturday nights, we stay up well past dawn. We made it to 6PM Sunday once, I think, not sleeping since Friday night. XD

Usually, during the summer, we bed at 7 or 8AM on Sunday morning, sleep until 4 or 5PM, when Mum picks us up from Foxxi's house, then we'll stay up a bit and fall back asleep for two or three more hours. (Laugh, you know you want too.) We're so crazy, sometimes... XP

Nowadays, we bed at 4 or 5AM Sunday morning, wake at 10 or 11:30AM. ;; Damn school...

Well if I didn't hate myself enough, I sure do now. Not sure how anyone older than 15 tolerated this shit.

Hey friends, glad you could make it. My name is Finn and welcome to my pit of shame! Or more realistically, a place to reflect as well as keep everyone abreast on my goings-on. I've grown up a lot since back then and I am... so sorry for that display, and similar displays. It took an abusive friendship and getting hit by a car to help me chill out. There's some term on urban dictionary that fits the kind of person I was, what with all the self-important typing, exaggerated reactions. I mean yes, I was a ~*~weeaboo~*~, but there was a lot of oversharing going on. That's what happens when you've got a clusterfuck of mental disorders without even knowing it. (But also I've always regarded everyone here as family, so I felt safe to do that here.)

Okay, real talk, it felt like OPD but I was always very genuine with my recounting of experiences, albeit filled with exaggeration, at times.

So what's been going on with me since my last journal check in? That'll all take a while to cover. Please trust that I'll do my best to stay active. I've gotten quite distracted over the years and the time I missed with all of you haunts me. (ToM had a Homestuck phase? Shit, Homestuck was my life for like four years, I met most of my IRL friends through it. I did like... 11 cosplays.)

I will updating this when I have the time (and the spoons). I've spent the last near decade being a workaholic and the last three or so years trying to hold onto what health I have. I apologize for how irregular my appearances may become. Pairing chronic pain and an attention disorder doesn't make for a reliable Wulfi.

The name feels a bit odd under my fingertips, and yet strangely comforting. Perhaps I am home, at last.

[Bitchy Grammar Queen]

ok

[Daryl]

I don't remember ToM having a Homestuck phase. Also what's Homestuck?

[Wulfi]

Nov 12, 2020 5:08:18 GMT -5 Daryl said:

I don't remember ToM having a Homestuck phase. Also what's Homestuck?

This is what I'm referring to. I had another online community I fell out of around this time that I came back to years later and realized they also had a Homestuck phase and I regretted missing out on it since it had been my hyperfixation for so long.

Also, I can't tell if you're making a “what's Homestuck” joke or not but Google is your friend. With how pervasive it is online I gather you've seen something regarding it at some point or another.

[Cetasaurus]

I remember joining a Homestuck-inspired RP on here without ever knowing what it was. I think Brandon made us create new AIM profiles for it and everything. It's like a webcomic, right?

[Bitchy Grammar Queen]

Nov 12, 2020 16:14:38 GMT -5 Cetasaurus said:

I think Brandon made us create new AIM profiles for it and everything.

Imagine using AIM at any point in time.

[Daryl]

Now that Ceta mentions it, I think it is a comic! That rings a bell, at least.

[Hauskaz]

Nov 12, 2020 20:49:23 GMT -5 Bitchy Grammar Queen said:

Nov 12, 2020 16:14:38 GMT -5 Cetasaurus said:

I think Brandon made us create new AIM profiles for it and everything.

Imagine using AIM at any point in time.

Silly Americans.

[Wulfi]

March 1st, 2021

Happy (belated) New Year! My health was shit over the winter and I was in so much pain I didn't know if I was gonna survive at some points, but I made it. My family history caught up to me in October and I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, but come April, if I keep up with my diet and exercise (I'm not on meds for it) I should have my a1c under 5 and not be (actively) diabetic anymore.

Lately my days have consisted of spring cleaning when I'm physically able (cold and unstable weather is murder on my neuropathy, which I will touch on in later entries; spoiler, it's been about a year and a half of physical misery, please research your doctors and medications before you get stuck with an incurable ailment), taking care of my partner and my dogs, planning the launch of a small business venture with friends, and deep diving on reddit for lifehacks on how to survive while broke. I'll touch on this more later too, but due to multiple health issues I've gained over the last decade working is incredibly hard for me but so far I'm not "bad enough" for disability but not fit enough for work, especially being vulnerable during a pandemic, so I've been struggling a lot. It really sucks, but it's really taught me to lean on others more and put myself first.

Most importantly, these past few years have really helped me be more vocal about my own wellbeing and livelihood instead of just doing what I thought I wanted for myself. For years I was subconsciously going along with what was expected of me without realizing it but a lot of spiritual growth and reflection helped that.

Oh, I'm also looking to (finally) return to school this year after dropping out three times during the recovery from my severe car wreck. Recently learned that FAFSA covers community college, too. Go figure! I'll still keep an eye out for scholarships. If anyone can recommend any scholarships or grants for queer, poor, disabled adults going for a nutrition and dietetics degree, hit me the fuck up, my guys.

Be safe out there.

[Daryl]

Welcome back, and happy new year! Your update is a roller coaster. Sounds like a lot went wrong but with a lot of good coming up to cancel it out.

I hope it ends up being the fun kind of roller coaster you can recommend to friends. Good luck!

[Bitchy Grammar Queen]

I noticed you didn't comment on the status of your mandatory entry in the current ToM writing competition.

[Wulfi]

Hi, wow, so... I'll keep it brief, because it's a hell of a lot and I don't know if I can fit it all neatly into one post. If you have any questions, I'll do my best to answer them.

Shortly after my last entry, I had to abandon my house and everything in it.

I've been struggling with my health for a long time and at the recommendation of a close friend I isolated at my mother's house for a few weeks to see if my symptoms improved. They did, immediately. One thing led to another and since January 2022 I've been diagnosed with mold illness and Multiple Chemical Sensitivity (MCS) as a result of C-/PTSD which has damaged my limbic system. In short, my limbic system, which controls fight or flight, interprets sparse traces of biotoxins (like mold), VOCs, heavy metals, fragrance, cleaning chemicals, etc., as threats and makes me sick/gives me intense pain. I've had two seizures this year because my brain thinks the world is actively attacking me. Fun!

I am now at the point where I am completely homebound aside from medical appointments. I cannot take medicine unless it's herbal as everything else makes me sick or sets my pain off. I am no longer eligible for the COVID vaccine and I'm immunocompromised so I'm being extra careful with my bubble. I cannot be around anything with fragrance, including essential oils. I've had to switch everything over to be completely unscented and fragrance free. Not only is it better for me, my partner feels healthier and more clear-minded now that we aren't breathing that shit in. Very nice. But this post isn't about me getting into how horrible fragrance is for our health overall, I just want to let everyone know where I'm at with my health.

I recently was able to raise enough money via the kindness of friends to purchase the program I need to help retrain my limbic system so it can calm the fuck down. My specialist is confident in my recovery with the program and frankly, after reading testimonials and seeing how bad other MCSers are (as awful as that is to say), I'm confident, too. Which is perfect, because what we forecast for ourselves, we program our brains to believe and thus manifest.

So that's the meat of it, I suppose. Uh, I obviously have not gone back to college yet, but that's at the top of my list once I fix all of this. If everything goes well, this will solve the majority of my health problems, if not all of them.

Oh, I'm not actively diabetic anymore, btw. To detox from mold and heavy metals I have to take binders. Toxins create inflammation, I became diabetic at the mold house. After a few months on one of my binders, without changing my diet, my a1c became normal and I don't spike anymore. Cool how that works.

Hope everyone is staying safe, out there.

[Bitchy Grammar Queen]

Personally, I blame Daryl for your health issues. Way to go, Daryl.

Edit: Can we call you Wulfinn?

[Wulfi]

Oct 4, 2022 14:17:25 GMT -5 Bitchy Grammar Queen said:

Edit: Can we call you Wulfinn?

Oh my god.

Yes.

[Bitchy Grammar Queen]

You're welcome.

[Daryl]

I apologize if I played any part in your health issues.

[matt]

Oct 6, 2022 2:44:49 GMT -5 Daryl said:

I apologize if I played any part in your health issues.

In what way could you have possibly contributed to their health issues?

[Hauskaz]

I think it's obvious, personally.

[Daryl]

Wulfinn is the only one who knows for certain.

[matt]

Oct 8, 2022 14:54:10 GMT -5 Daryl said:

one

What's your favourite number, and why?

[Daryl]

It's 46, because that's your post count, and my favorite number is always the one I thought of most recently 🙂

[matt]

Very cool!
I have another important question though. What's your least favourite number, and why?

[Daryl]

4862, obviously

[matt]

Oct 18, 2022 4:11:35 GMT -5 Daryl said:

4862, obviously

  but, why!?

[Cetasaurus]

My fav number is 8.

[Hauskaz]

Noted.