Post by singerrock on May 25, 2011 20:31:34 GMT -5
Chapter 1
Rain dripping on the windowsill. Just seems like an ordinary day. Yet when the sun comes out the rain is still here and nothing I do can fix it. Sure popping pills can take it away, but one day I miss and all my hard work goes away.
I was never like this. There was a time when even during my most dark days there was still sunshine. Yet everything changed in one second. Who ever thought that one second could change so much. A second to decide whether or not to go out. A second to decide to turn or not. A second to decide how hard to push down on the acceleration pedal. Everything can be changed in one second. Yet that one-second ended more than just one life, it ended two. That one-second turned me from a very social person to the most isolated person at my school.
I loved life and I loved the people I was surrounded by. My best friends in the world Katie and Mark had been threw everything with me. Yet even they can’t get rid of this cloud. My family has always had my back, yet now a days they don’t know what to do with me.
I paint a smile on my face and say I am fine in public and in front of my teachers, but in reality I am crying and I am not fine. I space out sometimes and teachers ask if I need to see the guidance counselor and I say no I am fine, but truth is I don’t want it to get back to my therapist. My therapist is a real bitch who won’t stop asking questions.
Isn’t it normal for a person to feel sad after their boyfriend dies right next to them? Isn’t it normal to be frustrated at the police department that killed their boyfriend? Isn’t it normal to ask why this happened? Well my therapist doesn’t think so. She thinks everything is right in the world and that everything that happened in the past stays in the past.
Well fuck that. That past fucked with me and with everything that I loved. So sorry if I act like a little bitch because some fucking idiot police officer decided to fuck with me and kill my boyfriend. I will never forget that son of a bitch and I will never forget William Robert Terrilori.
Rain dripping on the windowsill. Just seems like an ordinary day. Yet when the sun comes out the rain is still here and nothing I do can fix it. Sure popping pills can take it away, but one day I miss and all my hard work goes away.
I was never like this. There was a time when even during my most dark days there was still sunshine. Yet everything changed in one second. Who ever thought that one second could change so much. A second to decide whether or not to go out. A second to decide to turn or not. A second to decide how hard to push down on the acceleration pedal. Everything can be changed in one second. Yet that one-second ended more than just one life, it ended two. That one-second turned me from a very social person to the most isolated person at my school.
I loved life and I loved the people I was surrounded by. My best friends in the world Katie and Mark had been threw everything with me. Yet even they can’t get rid of this cloud. My family has always had my back, yet now a days they don’t know what to do with me.
I paint a smile on my face and say I am fine in public and in front of my teachers, but in reality I am crying and I am not fine. I space out sometimes and teachers ask if I need to see the guidance counselor and I say no I am fine, but truth is I don’t want it to get back to my therapist. My therapist is a real bitch who won’t stop asking questions.
Isn’t it normal for a person to feel sad after their boyfriend dies right next to them? Isn’t it normal to be frustrated at the police department that killed their boyfriend? Isn’t it normal to ask why this happened? Well my therapist doesn’t think so. She thinks everything is right in the world and that everything that happened in the past stays in the past.
Well fuck that. That past fucked with me and with everything that I loved. So sorry if I act like a little bitch because some fucking idiot police officer decided to fuck with me and kill my boyfriend. I will never forget that son of a bitch and I will never forget William Robert Terrilori.
